Year 2 In Poland: Why I Came Back

After a nine week holiday in Canada, I’m back in Poland and back to teaching English. Today I have officially been a resident of Poland for a full year. I’m very excited to be going into my second year of being an English language instructor and living in Poland. While I’m happy with the decision to come back, I have been asked a few times about why I came back in the first place.

The truth is this: I didn’t think it through at all. My boss asked me if I planned on coming back and I just said yes. This answer was automatic because it seemed like the natural progression my life would take. But again, why is that? And for that I have a simple answer: because this is what I was meant to do. I know that’s a cliche, but when you feel it it’s kind of undeniable.

As a twenty-something that attended university and got a degree in a topic that is too common and too broad I was faced with a situation that many people in the exact same position as me face: what the hell am I going to do with my life. My dreams were always this: teach English abroad and write. For a long time those dreams seemed unrealistic for a number of reasons. I also felt like I had no control over my life. I was just swimming along aimlessly. Luckily, eventually I came to the important realization that we all have a certain amount of control of where our lives go and the only person who can make your dreams come true is you. It may not all happen at once and it’s not always easy, but what you have to do is take that first small step towards making your dreams come true. The tiniest step possible is still a step in the right direction.

For me it started with an e-mail to a school and starting a blog. I may not be the greatest English teacher that ever lived, but I get better everyday and I regularly work at getting better and being the best teacher that I can be. I may not be a famous writer, but I still write whenever I can – plus you’re reading this aren’t you? That’s good enough for me. I’ll work everyday at continuing to make my dreams manifest to what I always imagined they would be, and that’s all I can do.

I came back to Poland because I love my life and love myself enough to tell myself I deserve the life I dreamed of having. Finally my life is in my hands and I feel like now I’m swimming with purpose. Is every day perfect? No. Do I miss everyone back home? Yes. But I still love my life and all of the positive things that have happened as a result of moving to Poland have made the negative things worth it.

So if you’re reading this and are swimming around aimlessly like I was, then go take that tiny first step toward the life you want. Do it today. It’ll be worth it tomorrow and many days after that. Here is to taking tiny steps forward and making your wildest dreams come true. (Cliche again, but seriously.)

Now, it’s time for me to do some lesson planning!

-A.V.Sz.

 

 

 

 

 

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